September 12, 2014

Lexy lately

It's been more than a month since I was here last. 
     My writing and my blog have been my ...secret garden where I went when going through the worst times of my life. I had a lot more time to write while dealing with depression and I have a strange feeling that my writing was actually better during those times :-) Oh well...

It's been a bit over two months since I moved into my new house. 
     Still door-less, I'm afraid :-) And yes, going to the bathroom is still a challenge. 
I had some people over to fix something a few weeks ago and I think I might have peed my pants if they stayed just a few minutes longer.

It's been a week since I'm on vacation. 
      It didn't really feel like it, except for the fact that my son was the alarm instead of my phone. He doesn't have a snooze function, unfortunately.

It's been almost a week since there are no longer 3 people in my house, but 4. Curious?

It's been almost 6 hours since Kidzilla went to the ...dark side :-) 
     I mean his father's, of course, aka Bob.
Lately, the man has been showing me that, the older he grows, the more pathetic he becomes. Could this be from the constant exchange of ideas he has with the Bitch? Oh wait, there is none.
    This made me realize an universally known fact : we are so many different people, we wear so many masks in our lives and, honestly, it's a mystery how we can go through so many changes and still be able to keep some traits along the years. 
If you don't understand this, don't worry...sometimes I don't understand myself either. 

Can a relationship actually work when you are with someone who is not very...bright? Would you even consider a serious relationshit with someone like that?

    What are the consequences of that for you as an individual? 
   Do you have to train your brain more in order not to lower yourself to your partner's level?    
   Why would you get involved with someone like that in the first place? Yes, the promise of sex is one explanation...
Alright, this is my bitchy moment and this is a subject that can be debated for days. 

The (non) sense of meaningless relationships. 
                                But I'm nobody to judge on that.

I'm thinking: what if the KID was unable to challenge me intellectually? No, the sex would not be enough to keep the relationship going for more than a month provided that I'd see him few times a week and not more than half hour each time. 
  A year and a half soon...He's driving me crazier than my son most of the time, but I've learned to accept that, as long as I let him, I must like it. Twisted, I know. And quite difficult to admit, trust me.

And speaking about's been half hour since the KID has been nagging can all guess about what...

At the beginning of this post, I was telling you that my house is now a home for 4. No, I haven't given birth since my last post. 
Instead, I am now a shelter for the to speak. 

    One of the few persons the KID tolerates has recently ended a 7 year relationship with his girlfriend and the KID thought it would be nice to offer him accommodation and heart...medicine.  
For most people, it helps to be around friends when going through heartbreak. I'm not one, but our friend is. 
He is thankful for not being alone through what seems to be a difficult time for him. 

Briefly, the girlfriend felt that the relationshit lacked some spark...some new beginning butterfly stuff...something. Obviously, despite his efforts, he was unable to provide that, so the long lasting affair ended in tears, for both of them, but for different reasons.

As if I needed another one, this is for me proof that relationships that start before our 20's will inevitably end after few years, if we're lucky. 
      Why? Because it is unlikely that both partners will develop the same or find a way to actually complete each other after going through different levels of change. 
Or simply because, at some point, either one of them or both will want to experience something/someone else. But this is just my opinion.
Don't worry, I'll let you in on this some more in the coming weeks.

I bought a couch and other small things for the house. Guess what the result was? I'm broke least till next month's pay check. 
   Unlike few months ago, now I try not to worry so much. Even though I should, I think inner peace and psychological health is much more important.

It's hard enough with 3 dicks in the house, 4 if you count the dog, so why bother for other things too? 
Til next time, peace!


  1. Welcome back to blogging....
    Have been missing the updates on how the house is coming along....
    I have 3 males in this house, and that's not including the two male hamsters!
    It can only get better ;) xx

    1. hey, you goddess! it's good to be back and hear from you;-) Respect for handling a house of males so well ;-)

  2. You know what, I agree with you. My writings were so much better when I was down and depressed. Not that I would want to be in that situation again. But, I guess that's one of the "pros" of going through something emotional. You express your soul more. Hope you blog more. :)

    1. Hi SuperLux, thank you for stopping by. I've been on your blog and found myself in this title:
      And you are right: you express so much more when what you are going through tough situations/times. You can be sure I'll follow your blogs from now on;-)

    2. That's very generous of you. Thank you. And yes, there are more going through that stage than we know of.

  3. Such a profound post for just a little update, I have missed this (and by this I mean you). How we are so many different people-true and deep. And the part about dating someone who wasn't very bright...I couldn't do it. I dating this one guy who I found out wasn't very bright and I ended it after a few weeks because I couldn't take it.

    1. Sooooo...should I understand that during those FEW WEEKS, you weren't talking much, right?:))) And you know what? I can't tell if you mean what you say ..about profound, deep, true...really? or are you just messing with me to make me feel smart/stupid? :)

    2. I know I'm 99.9% sass, but in this I'm being true.

      "We are so many different people, we wear so many masks in our lives and, honestly, it's a mystery how we can go through so many changes and still be able to keep some traits along the years." I LOVE this. It's so lovely it make me want to cry. Honestly.

    3. Thank you, babe..It's really...I'm really really glad you liked it. It's what I felt and I didn't know how else to express it